Blessed

Dear God,
You are amazing! You are right I truly enjoy your blessings more when I am tested and sit in anticipation. I love you, and I am awstruck at how awesome you truly are. Thank you for loving me so much, and not giving up on me. You are my creator, savior, and my God. How great you truly are!
In your loving Name I pray
Amen

Lat week I was awarded my financial aid for school. It was a lot less than I could have imagined. I began to pray and God told me to be faithful. I remembered an article from a scholarship site that mentioned that some kids abandon their award letters when they withdraw from school, and if you are short to speak with your financial aid to inquire about it. After praying I immediately emailed them back to see if I qualified. That was last Tuesday. The next day I received an email stating that my email was being forwarded to the director of financial aid to looked over. The days went on and suddenly it was Friday, and I still had not heard back. I called and left a message, but did not get a call back. That night I found out that we would not be going back to school shopping the next day, and wait to see what the school would say. I mistakenly took this as a sign that my dad was giving up on the thought that I wasn't going for financial reasons. The next day I cried and begged God. I couldn't imagine that I would come so close just to fall short. I started doubting and wrestling with my thoughts. I am not sure what a spiritual inner war looks like, but if I were to take a guess I was and had been going through one for a few days. My dad sat me down on Saturday to straighten out my thoughts. He assured me that I would be going, but we just weren't sure how much we would have to pay which means a cut back on back to school shopping. This was completely different than what I was beginning to believe. Sunday came and I had given it up to the Lord. I was so weak I didn't even know what to do. I offered that as God's starting point to start working on my heart again. For Him to fill me with His strength, instead of me trying to fill myself. At one point I just let go. It was that moment that gave me peace. I started thinking of how I could go after what I needed on Monday. Monday morning I begin my devotional time, and I feel the urge to call the school. I called but only got the voicemail again, so I continued with my reading. I had planned to call back at 10am to see if they were in the office yet. At 9:58 I got a call from the school saying that they had already emailed me with the information last Wednesday. What! I was shocked. I went to my inbox and nothing was there, but when I went to my spam folder there were three emails I had received from the school with different information. There lied the email for the financial aid. Even though we still have some work to do, I have been given a great opportunity to possibly receive more financial aid. As I began gathering the documents needed I received a phone call. It was the first school I had planned to attend. They were calling to inform me that the deposits that were nonrefundable would be refunded to me. I can not begin to explain what an amazing feeling of relief came over me. God just wanted to test and make sure I was faithful and ready to take on the path He has set for me, and now He has blessed me with what I need. It has truly been an emotional and amazing morning. God never seizes to amaze me with all His love and power. If this all has happened before school I cannot wait to see what surprises He has in store when I get there.